I've gone back and forth on the topic of writing my "dream memoir" a lot. On one hand, it seems completely ridiculous for an ordinary person who has not achieved anything unusual in life to write a memoir.
On the other hand, I lost hope and a dream saved me, and I feel called to tell that story.
I honestly don't know at this point if I'll be sharing that story here in the blog or in a long-form format but I do have an intro.
Spirit Dream Intro
In 2008, at the lowest point in my life, I had a dream I couldn’t explain.
Unlike the murky, sepia colored dreams I was used to, this dream was sharp and bright and saturated with color. A spectrum of blue, unlike anything I’d ever seen. Vivid reds. Shining white light. A beautiful woman with deep-water blue eyes, radiating love.
Filled with sparkling gemstones and mysterious beings, the dream told the story of a journey to and from an amazing location, and it told that story coherently.
As the woman in blue guided me from one dream experience to another, separate themes played out, like story-lines in a movie. When the dream finally ended, each loose end came together in a memorable and emotional conclusion.
I woke up convinced that my mysterious dream guide was someone special. I knew that the things that she showed me meant something. And even though I had no idea who she was or what she was trying to tell me, I was determined to find out.
This was the beginning of a spiritual journey that carried me through the New Age, in and out of Spiritualism and Wicca, halfway across the world, on pilgrimage to Israel, back to Christianity, through parapsychology, and onto the doorstep of Carl Gustav Jung.
And it all began with the dream, I would come to call the Spirit Dream.
Update
Not long after I wrote this post I incubated a dream about my writing. Because of that dream I decided that I was overthinking things and that shifting back and forth between autism memoir vs. spiritual memoir was unnecessary. So I’ve decided to just tell my story. The title will stay the same but it will include content on both autism and metaphysics (my special interest).
This post originally appeared in The Mystic Review (mysticreview.com)
Lovely, Barbara. I'm eager to read on. This promises to be very special.